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Diary of a Troubled Preacher: The Talks

Raw conversations from the rubble. Where the mask comes off, the pulpit sits down, and the truth finally gets to speak.

A Word Before We Begin

You do not have to hide anymore.

For years, he preached holiness while privately battling addiction. He wore the mask of ministry while his soul unraveled. These talks are not polished sermons. They are the honest words of a man who broke, who was met by grace in the rubble, and who now speaks so others can stop pretending.

The Author

Andre' D. Fullwood, Sr.

Andre' D. Fullwood, Sr. is a preacher who fell hard, hid well, and was found by grace. He writes from the rubble, not the pedestal because the rubble is where his story actually changed. For years he preached holiness from the pulpit while privately battling addiction, wearing the mask of ministry while his soul unraveled. The breaking point became the turning point. Today he serves leaders who are hiding in the same silence he once lived in not as an expert who has arrived, but as a witness who has emerged. He is a certified master mindset coach, the author of *Diary of a Troubled Preacher* and *The Prophetic Trilogy*, and the founder of a confidential outreach for ministers navigating personal struggles in secret. His scars preach louder than his secrets now and that is the whole point.
 

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The pulpit could not cover what the private moments were revealing. So I stopped covering. And grace was already waiting there.

— From Diary of a Troubled Preacher
The Talks

What He Speaks On

Honest sessions for pastors, ministry teams, recovery gatherings, and small rooms where the truth can finally breathe.

01

The Mask of Ministry

What happens when the man in the pulpit and the man at home are two different people — and how the mask finally comes off.

02

Grace in the Rubble

Redemption is not a rescue from the wreckage. It is God meeting you inside of it. A talk for leaders at their breaking point.

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Hidden No More

A mindset session for believers carrying addiction, shame, and secrets — and the practical path out of the private prison.

Diary of a Troubled Preacher
The Book Behind the Talks

Diary of a Troubled Preacher

A memoir and a reckoning. A raw, honest witness for leaders who are hiding what the pulpit cannot cover. Every talk is rooted in these pages — and every page was written from the rubble.

If you have ever wondered whether God's grace can reach you where you actually are — this book was written for you.

Confidential Outreach

Reach Out. Quietly.

Book a talk. Ask a question. Or simply say the thing you have not been able to say out loud. Every message is read personally and held in confidence.

You do not have to hide.