A Memoir & A Reckoning

Diary of a Troubled Preacher

Written from the rubble, not the pedestal. A raw, honest witness for leaders who are hiding what the pulpit cannot cover.
The Message

You do not have to hide.

For years, he preached holiness while privately battling addiction. He wore the mask of ministry while his soul unraveled. The breaking point became the turning point — and this book is what emerged from the rubble.
Andre Fullwood
The Author

Andre' D. Fullwood, Sr.

Preacher. Author. Certified Master Mindset Coach. But before any of those titles, a man who nearly did not survive what he was hiding.

Andre' writes not as an expert who has arrived, but as a witness who has emerged. His work creates space for ministers and believers to confront what they have been carrying — and to discover that grace can meet them in the rubble.

I preached holiness on Sunday and drowned in shame by Monday. The pulpit could not save what the mask was killing.

— From the pages of the book
Who This Is For

If any of this sounds familiar…

This book — and this work — is for the ones still standing in the pulpit while quietly falling apart.
01

Hiding in Ministry

Leading others toward light while quietly wrestling in the dark.

02

Battling in Secret

Addiction, shame, compulsion — the things no one knows you carry home.

03

Wearing the Mask

Exhausted from performing spiritual wholeness you no longer feel.

Diary of a Troubled Preacher
The Book

Grace can meet you in the rubble.

Diary of a Troubled Preacher is not a polished testimony wrapped in a tidy bow. It is a diary — entries from the collapse, the hiding, the reckoning, and the slow, unglamorous return to grace.

If you are tired of pretending, this book is a hand extended in the dark.

Confidential Outreach

Reach out. In private.

Whether you want to learn more about the book, share your story, or simply be heard by someone who has been there — this space is for you. No pedestal. No performance.
All correspondence is treated with confidence and care.