A Memoir & A Reckoning
Diary of a Troubled Preacher
Written from the rubble, not the pedestal. A raw, honest witness for leaders who are hiding what the pulpit cannot cover.
The Message
You do not have to hide.
For years, I preached holiness while privately battling addiction. I wore the mask of ministry while my soul unraveled, trying to protect an image while carrying a private war.
Eventually, the breaking point became the turning point. I discovered that the truth could hurt, but hiding was costing me even more.
Diary of a Troubled Preacher is what emerged from the rubble, a testimony of what happens when the mask finally breaks and grace meets you in the place you thought would destroy you.
You do not have to hide. Your scars can preach louder than your secrets.
The Author
Andre' D. Fullwood, Sr.
Andre' D. Fullwood, Sr. is a preacher who fell hard, hid well, and was found by grace. He writes from the rubble, not the pedestal, because the rubble is where his story actually changed. For years he preached holiness from the pulpit while privately battling addiction, wearing the mask of ministry while his soul unraveled. The breaking point became the turning point. Today he serves leaders who are hiding in the same silence he once lived in, not as an expert who has arrived, but as a witness who has emerged. He is a certified master mindset coach, the author of *Diary of a Troubled Preacher* and *The Prophetic Trilogy*, and the founder of a confidential outreach for ministers navigating personal struggles in secret. His scars preach louder than his secrets now, and that is the whole point.
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I preached holiness on Sunday and drowned in shame by Monday. The pulpit could not save what the mask was killing.
— From the pages of the book
Who This Is For
If any of this sounds familiar…
This book — and this work — is for the ones still standing in the pulpit while quietly falling apart.
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Hiding in Ministry
Leading others toward light while quietly wrestling in the dark.
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Battling in Secret
Addiction, shame, compulsion — the things no one knows you carry home.
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Wearing the Mask
Exhausted from performing spiritual wholeness you no longer feel.
The Book
Grace can meet you in the rubble.
Diary of a Troubled Preacher is not a polished sermon. It is a raw testimony from a preacher who fell, hid, and eventually had to face the truth he had spent years trying to conceal.
Andre' D. Fullwood, Sr. writes openly about addiction, secrecy, shame, ministry, and the breaking point that forced him to stop hiding behind the mask.
This book was written for the leader who is still hiding, the believer exhausted from pretending, and anyone who needs to know that exposure is not the end of the story.
Confidential Outreach
Reach out. In private.
Whether you want to learn more about the book, share your story, or simply be heard by someone who has been there — this space is for you. No pedestal. No performance.
All correspondence is treated with confidence and care.
